Change it up

So yeah, I changed the title a little. I came to the realization that the title of a blog is just as insignificant as the blog itself. I mean, the fact that I can type words into my computer and post it on the internet doesn’t make it important. I’m just one person typing for whatever reason I can come up with that day. As is obvious, I haven’t found the inspiration to write since my first post. I was stressed out with school then, I was angry, I was frustrated. I had a drink or two (or 20, but who’s counting) and I’ve managed to work out some of the stress. Now that I’ve calmed down, I don’t think it’s necessary to have an obscenely suggestive headline to my life.

I like this new title, because it is me. I really don’t care if you don’t like me. This is me and this is how I’m going to live my life. I’m not here to entertain you or make you feel better about yourself. When it comes down to it, you’ve got to look out for number 1, right? And in my life, I’m number 1. Everyone else is last. In the words immortalized by the film Talladega Nights: The Legend of Ricky Bobby, “There can’t be two number 1s, that wouldn’t work. Oh, right, ‘cuz that would make 11.” Classic.

So where am I now? Well I just had my first midterm last week. It definitely did not go as well as I had hoped. But in all honestly that is my fault because I definitely did not take the time required to be fully prepared for it. Oh well, lesson learned. The slap to the face that was my exam has given me the focus to really take this graduate school seriously. I got through undergraduate school through my brains alone (I mean, c’mon, a state school is not that hard), but this is the big leagues. There is no room for error. I have another midterm in two weeks and I am going to start studying for it tomorrow. I’m going to be ready for this test.

I bought an Xbox 360. Probably not the best decision considering my recent lack of focus on school, but I have been thinking about getting one for a long time and I am happy that I did. The system definitely dominated my time over the weekend, but now that that is over it’s crunch time. I’m only going to use the 360 as a break between bouts of studying.

Pretty much all of my friends do their studying in the library. I could never understand this because I simply can’t do work in the library. I just can’t concentrate without something in the background engaging the part of my brain that wants to think about random stuff and replay events in my head (usually something from that day that pissed me off). I always need to have music playing when I study. I don’t know why, but it works for me. I guess if I really wanted to do work in a library, I could buy an IPod or something, but why waste the money when I can just study at home in front of my computer? I’m a big metal head, so I like to have my music blasting, completely enveloping me in the cacophony of sound and vibrations from the speakers and sub woofer. You can literally feel the power behind the music when you do this, it’s almost intoxicating.

I am going to try to post more often from now on, on a regular basis. I want to shoot for at least Monday, Wednesday, Friday. In writing this post, I have found that the words just flow out of me and I want to go in so many different directions at once. I could probably write 5 pages of rambling nonsense before I got tired of it. But nobody wants to read that, so I’m cutting it off here. Tomorrow is one of my days off so I am definitely, definitely going to be taking pictures of my neighborhood and posting them here. Check back on Wednesday to see them.